lingg*

leave it behind

2007-01-22T07:57:00.000-08:00

well i'll leave this blog here

=D change of new blog, means a new life xD

http://www.xanga.com/l0veU

my new bloggie~

break it down now

2007-01-16T07:59:00.000-08:00

its my off day today and i decided to blog and my blog is so so -OUTDATED-
well i haven't really got the chance to change my blogskin and blog now a days
i occupied myself with things i like to do instead of staying at home letting my
mind run wild. well i'm happy thou (= its rather fast for me to get over my
heartbreaks and ect(say three cheers, say three cheers for myself xD) ahahas
and i really want to thanks all my frens (= firstly is my precious jie Xiu Juan
she accompanied me thru all my bad times i'm glad for that Secondly my
Promoter frens while working in J8 they are great really ^^ i miss u guys so
much~ Lastly. .. I want to thank Him, Cai thanks for letting me see clearly.
i don't know i had been so blind for so long, now while i think back.. is clear
that i'm just something to fill up the hole in ur life. Using me to fill the emptiness
in ur life. I was a great use uhs. Well anyway good luck to u.

ha i have nth to say well getting tired of my life

a good night to u

g0ing crazy

2006-12-10T05:35:00.000-08:00

ppl this song is nice =D
http://h1.ripway.com/bijouxrain/Natalie-GoingCrazy.mp3
http://ftp.m-eka.com/01.mp3

r n b
http://thagrimone.imeem.com/music/Xm3zadyp/smack_that/
http://profile.imeem.com/PWZtVz/music/F0kjRllM/same_script_different_cast/
http://profile.imeem.com/rsseH/music/XT6yIDc7/let_me_love_youreggaeton_remix/
http://profile.imeem.com/6IGDiK/music/2z52FdB9/too_little_too_late/
http://moneybags500.imeem.com/music/JfdyZxgH/still_in_love_with_my_x_remix/
http://royalstar.imeem.com/music/LHCHq2yj/run_away_luv/

2006-11-29T21:53:00.000-08:00

1. What do you do when you feel lonely?
depand lohs.. see how bah

2. What do you do when you feel happy?
smiling to myself =D

3. What do you do when you feel hungry?
bear with it or jus eat whatever i can find at home

4. What do you do when you fall in
love?
hmm hmmm.. Lolz

5. What do you do when you feel sad?
Staring at the night sky looking for star
think of something else, talk to my frens,

6. What do you do when you feel angry?
dun show it or jus show it

7. What do you do when you feel crazy?
doing crazy things

8. What do you do when you feel mad?
Yell on top of my voice xD

9. What do you do when you feel stress?
MAPLE hahaha and listen to songs

10. What do you do when you feel no
one care about you?
There are always ppl to care for me but
wad i really wan is his care =/

11. What do you do when you want to
know more about her/him?
observing him silently

12. What do you do when you missed
your bestfriends?
SMS!!

13. What do you do when you arrived at
the place that you don't know?
Look around haha

14. What do you do when you feel
broken?
Cry?

15. What do you do when you feel
someone cheated on you?
Pretend i dunno haha

quizz

2006-11-27T20:04:00.000-08:00

Your Life is 46% Perfect

Your life is pretty normal - sometimes great, sometimes not so great.You have a lot of good stuff going on. Your life may be more perfect than you realize.

How Perfect is Your Life?

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

How Sarcastic Are You?

Your Love Number is 4

You are a creative and expressive lover - a true romantic at heart.An introspective soul, you know exactly how your ideal relationship should be.But if you don't get that ideal, you tend to get a bit pouty and dramatic.You need someone who can roll with the punches, that's for sure!

What Is Your Love Number?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:
Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.
Experience Level:
Your experience level is high.You've loved, lost, and loved again.You have had a wide range of love experiences.And when the real thing comes along, you know it!
Dominance:
Your dominance is low.This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.You know a relationship is not about getting your way.And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is low.You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.
Independence:
Your independence is medium.In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

You Are A Realistic Romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.You're still taken in by love poems and sunsetsYou just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.
Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.
Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss"

You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship.You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love.
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you
Your flirting style: friendly and sweet
What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance
Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

You Are 20% Extrovert, 80% Introvert

You are quite reservedYou aren't afraid of social situations...But you very much prefer to go it aloneAnd why not? You're your own best friend!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

Your Aura is Blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.
The purpose of your life: showing love to other people
Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah
Careers for you to try: Psychic, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

What Color Is Your Aura?

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

L0ve HIM

2006-10-28T21:43:00.000-07:00

EILEEN

LOVE

CAI CAI

BUACKS~!!*

l0lS

2006-10-02T19:41:00.000-07:00

i've g0t mixed up feelings today
i feel happy yet sad, sad yet happy
i was wondering.. if he had the
same feeling, i'm having now. ..
i dunno why when he found a new
ms gf i feel kinda uneasy.. or rather
jealous i shall say, i hate it when the
gal call him dear.. =.= hohoho
and i g0t the urge inside to shout
at the gal " DUN U CALL HIM DEAR~!! "
" HE IS N O T UR DEAR!!!" l0lS
but its sound too hurting for the gal
or maybe i might hurt him in this way
s0 i decide to shut my mouth up and
went off without telling him. .. i went
with -doom- my new found fren to
hunt for arwen glass shoe after she
log off.. i tracked him and he is at
the station waiting for ship to orbis
when i rushed there he's already
boarded the ship X . .. i feel so @#$%^
and i was fucked up >=( i dun wan
him to have a gf.. and i think i am too
selfish. so i did n0t mention anything
like pls dun find a gf.. but if they r
going to married i will gratz them and
wish them good and then hahaha end
of my maple life =( i dun wanna see
ppl calling him dear or hubby infront
of me or somewhere i can see.. =.=
but seriously i dun wan to be replaced
by someone else... u know sometimes
i feel i was being left out =X haiis
i guess i shall see wat will happen then
i really miss him man............

he and me

his charac wh0m i'm sweetly married to

he erer me

*haPPy faMily*=)

his's my sweeTiie k0r

NikySAN~

d0 this c0s

he had xXdisney92Xx

training with him

=.=

i miss him

2006-09-21T21:11:00.000-07:00

yesterday morning i went over to his place XD
he miss called me in the morning and i woke up
and i wash up and went to his place straight =D
his always gaming l0lS~ and i played maple
and then he went to slp s0 i petted him but
he cant SLP =.= and he wanted 'niow niow'
and i niow him l0lS u know he's like a baby ^^
but he's sweet ^^ maybe i feel that way haas~
after tat his mum came home and they had
their lunch. His mum is nice too asked me if i
want but declined as i dun feel hungry ^^
and around 4 we went vista point together
as they went eating again=.= and ger ger
his cutie meii meii wanted to get a pair of
contact lens. after that his mummi drove
to TPY to drop ger ger off as she's meeting
her guy at there and we went to Outram Park
/Chinatown one of the KTV. We sang but i
feel so shy to sing at that time s0 i sang softly
all the time >.< if i was with babes i think i will
get crazy~ l0lS babes u know i sing out loud de mahs
i'm always crazy with the songs i love ^^ and well he
chosen songs that have to be paired like Shan Hu Hai
Bu de Bu ai and lastly the Wu Ding all my frav but
i SING SO SOFT AND OUT OF TUNE AND NO VOICE
=.= l0lS it had been a great day f0r me =]

but when i got home its a different story, i hate to be
at home, i hate my dad. HE is so UNREASONABLE
VOILENT TOO. aww.. jus hope i can move out one day
dun talk abt it, it makes me feel so sad

well now all i can is only think about it him =)
and of c0s i WUN forget abt my babes BUT
babes I dunno if he likes me too =(
l0lS nvm i know with or without a guy
i wun die =D but babes i'm really happy
that i had u girls and him in my life =)

sway

2006-07-04T07:18:00.000-07:00

arhs~ =( i lost my purse.. with my ic+atm card+ez link+$$$
haiis~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
nb... i so SHAGG~~~~
no mood at all.. haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis
haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis
haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis haiis
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i go sleep liao la.. SWAYY!!!

switswiit

2006-06-28T07:13:00.000-07:00

today in da morning i played maple together
with hubby.. love him so much.. protect me
and "feed" me =] haas hubby is da beSt!!
SMOOCHIES~!*

went to work after tat.. late asual haas
about 15mins late but no problem boss
nv scold me i'm sO sleepy truu out my
working hours but when i think of hubby
lolS i became much more energetic.. =))

actually wanted to play maple wit hubby
in da night but hubby have to extend his
working hours to 11 instead of 8 gOsh~~
haii but nvm tml i still can play de =)
i'll be working really hard to lv up de
i wan to be the same same as hubby
lv7x priest in 3 weeks time!!
yeah yeah

reAL sleepy now *yawnS*

nite everyone

misS hUbby~
buaCkS buaCkS~* =]]

wolala

2006-06-27T01:47:00.000-07:00

it had been weeks since i last blogged
well asusal i'm busily working.. =(
and i have been recieving lots of
scolding from mah bosS.. =/ haiis
my mum had kept her promise on
getting me a com and.. for my dad
agreed on signing the internet service
using his name and i will pay the monthly
bill for this. haa.. hmm but after all i still
can at least chat and play game wit HIM
hohoho~*crazy* i was banned from using
the msn to chat at office...wtf.. but nth can
stop me from using the msn kekeke but
there's a problem wit the com i use in my
office.. its now infected by adware, spyware
and virus.. its so damn slow! kaO... but i
installed the virus scan, anti-spyware.
but looks like it doesn't work. +.+
hahas now wat am i gg to do wit tat...
haiis.. blending my brain juice to think.

hmm i think i liked sum1 liao haha
i dun wan to live in my past..
forget it dun talk abt past..
what have been done is done nth could
undo it.. tears which had drop is dried
wound which are deep had recovered and
became scars. =) so why still sobbing abt tat

lurve is in the air

a new life to be continued

wah lao ehh

2006-06-05T00:06:00.000-07:00

kaoz... today ying wen meet me for
lunch.. suprisingly eh.. well after lunch
i went back to office but i was delayed
by the raiin and guess wat.. time is runing
out so i ran in the raiin.. and unFoturnately
i fall.. so embarrassing!!! and because of
the fall my slipper snapped.. Gosh~.. so i
went DMK to by myself a economical ladies
slipper at 16.90.. luckily.. i got the $$ if not
i'll be walking around bare footed.
haiis... my office aircon not working after
the technician came and dunno do wat to the
conpresser.. the whole office is bloodily HOT!
Gosh~ ant there's only one fan for the whole
office.... woot sweating..

_____________________________________

Saturday

went Marina South for steamboat with my
babe darling debb, her guy, botak and ah de
lol.. did not eat much cos.. i'm scare i can't slim
down.. actually tot of meeting caii caii b4 going
there but i got too much work to be done so i stay
in the office till 4p.m.. lolx... than went marina
square.. walk walk we went warehouse, levis', e-base
triumph and got some un wanted staring from the
sluts out there.. wat's so strange when we young
girls went into tat shop? darn u sluts =p
after tat went home by cab.. no time to waste
haas~

the couple

2006-06-02T21:58:00.000-07:00

(HAPPY? )

well... dun ask how i'm feeling rite now...
i'm damn hurt.. i dunno this until xiaobai
told me.. so i search his profile and i come
upon the profile "applepie".. yes and tats his
gal.. since 27th April i think cos one of the
pic capation is the date.. haiis... wat else can
i post the pic cos.. this shows he has a gal
and he SHOULD NOT want anything else
from me... this i promise and i swear to
my grave.. yea...

haha

2006-06-02T04:07:00.000-07:00

yup... as usual i reported late
at work so i'm going home late too
and haiis everyone is demanding
me do work faster.. well i can't
cos i'm at my best... everytime like
tat..., haiis works come in but nv
go out... piles of work have yet to
be done.. i'm feeling so stress..
feel like quiting.. haiis although
its a 1 year course... its definately
stress... cos i'm working like a "full
time working adult" its just tat i go
school on thursday only.. its fcuking
stress.. gosh i dun have enuff sleep at
all... darn... haiis... feel like oh my shit
came out from my anus...... haas
no its actually like... i was thrown
into the ocean and i dunno how to swim
haiis...
have lunch together with tracy at
lao pah sat.. indian rice good enuff
to fill me up
haiis so sleepy

nitez

haiis

2006-06-01T03:04:00.000-07:00

superwomen???
love???
bu neng shi qu ni....
HATRED IS FOR REAL!
U DUN UNDERSTAND....
U DUN FUCKING UNDERSTAND
HOW FUCKING HURT I AM
BASTARD........

I HATE YOU.....
.........................................
U DUN FUCKING UNDERSTAND
HOW I FEEL
AND YOU DUN KNOW HOW
FUCKING HURT I AM..

I DUNNO WHY AM I FUCKING STUPID
TO TRUST AND HELP YOU EVERYTIME
I'M SO SO FUCKING STUPID AND HURT
BOY U DUNNO OKAY
AND U DUN EVEN CARE A FUCKING BIT
DARN-MIT...WHY I'M SO FUCKING
S-T-U-P-I-D???
A FUCKING MORON...IDIOT.. DUMBO
TREAT ME FOR GRANTED AND WHY WHY
WHY I STILL TRUST AND HELP YOU?
FUCKING SUPERWOMEN... IS MAKING
ME EVEN SADDER... WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS...
THE WORLD IS FUCKING CRUEL...
HEARTLESS BASTARD...

I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SUCH A FOOL

FUCK THE WHOLE WORLD

PCB!!!!!!

haiis*

2006-05-30T03:08:00.000-07:00

didn't i say i have to be stern..
why when the moment i saw ur
pic my heart will have a huge
pain.. like a stone drowning in
the deep water?.. stop beating
fro a few moment.. and a sudden
saddness????? i can't believe in
myself anymore.. i can't lie to myself
anymore...

the fact is

i still love you... i really love u this much

i'm sad not becos u dun love me in return
i'm sad becos i dun have the courage to
let it go..

dieing in my own mess...
bitching with my feelings
playing in my own blood..

blood..sweat..and tears..
just to love you

useless

2006-05-29T02:35:00.000-07:00

with love life will be easier to
move on..
i dun mind to live my life in
a dull way. its better with love
love is something i'm most afraid of
the feeling i hate most.
the love from my family and frens
will be enuff for my to live on.
and i will not wan anything else than
frens. Till i recover from my suffering
well... without a guy i still can live my
life.
i will not want to love again.
and not to be loved again.
life has not been easy for me.
dun let me suffer anymore..
if not nobody will know why i will die
out of a sudden.

danggg

2006-05-24T03:08:00.000-07:00

well life nv be the same without u
i had lived abt 2 yrs ++ without ur
care without ur love without ur
concern without everything...

and thanks for the lies
thanks for pretending like u CARE

i wan a tattoo

2006-05-23T03:02:00.000-07:00

i draw these nice?

haas~ today caiicaii finally online liao if
not nobody tok*co*k wif me again lol
now he working in pastamania lol gotta
wear e hat and he hate it alot.. meow~

lolx.. went golden shoe for lunch again
a big thank you to tracy for the treat
and "smOkesss" sticks.. lolx... hmm i

and i'm thinking of having a tattoo...
the original one or the luminious one..?
confused.. today deb babe didn't online
so i can't ask her for opinion.. lol i jus
love her flamed ace.. so cool.. hmm
if i really gonna get one where shld
i have it on?? lolx... dang... well if i
really want i have to wait for next
month when i get my pay... lol....
thinking of have a butterful tribal..
i saw it on net.. it was beautiful
really a beauti man.... hahax

think too much liao la~

miss him*

Devil beside you

2006-05-21T23:29:00.000-07:00

yesterday went grandma house for lunch and
went SKT.. i went up to didi uncle's house to
watch TV... i waited about 2 hours for the
show i wanted.. Devil Beside You..
wahaha... love this show.. i loved the charater
played by Mike He Jun Xiang as "Ah Meng"
he gave me the feeling of... dangerious...
mysterious..cool and last but not least
HANDSOME. kekex... how i wish i can meet
someone like him in sch =) lolx..

so yan dao... but so sad... the show only
hosted on sunday... lolx.. this show is
great... so touch too... i got tears when i watch
this show so nice... haas

sadding

2006-05-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

today is not my day... vexed..and sad
well there are things i can't pretend it
nv happen.. i wanted to forget abt it
seal it up.. but u reminded me tat...
well the feeling is like a healing
wound being tear open again.. i was
very sad abt tat.. i did not want this
to happen as well.. but when u say
those.. at tat very moment, tears
rushed their way down to my cheek
and i had nv expect u will say those
things..
life is jus something useless
if only i need not to live in this
world.. wouldn't it be good?
it will be perfect..
prefectly beautiful
things jus dun get in the
way u wanted it to be..
life.. is meaningless

ooo

2006-05-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

today..suppose to have lunch with ya ling bao bei
de.. but last minute she got thing to do cannot meet me..
lol.. nth much to say because everyday's the same.. lol

goshies

2006-05-16T00:48:00.000-07:00

OMG... I can survive anymore..
haiis... i'm broke.. how am i
going to live?

haiis... his last wish is to put
tattoo on his both hand and
shading in his chest... haiis
i hope i can grant him his wish
but how? to love someone
who don't love u is something
really sad huh... tats what i
can say..
[*ni ai de chang lang*]
[*wo ai de nuan luo*]

haiix~... when will i find
someone who really love
me and i really love him?
lolx... to early in fall in
love with someone ba...
17 onli know what rite
but haiis... nobody really
know how others feel
except for ur own-self
......................................

he will nv understand
how much he meant
to me..

love is hurtful

ignite my DREAMS

birthday of my

2006-05-15T01:06:00.000-07:00

yesterday... celebrated my birthday with papa and ah di...
went alexandra food maket eat dinner... saw zai rong and
wei xiang... they r so busy.. lol
haiis... not very happy...
nth to say le... so bz and tired...haas

*cant help inlove with euu*

haha

2006-05-08T03:12:00.000-07:00

well... i had been spending my money recklessly
i dun felt sorry..
now i'm left with 2.94 in my account for
1 month... and i had beem living on my dad money
and i lied to him i have 100 in there and 60 in
mu purse... if he finds out i'm goin to die and guess
i sign up a m1 phone line student plan. my bill is
175++ m1 is not worth ppl using they are expensive
they rob in day-light. gosh
well u might think i called ppl too much/too long
i can tell u. the outgoing call time is only 16 hours++
for one and 1/2 month... and tat bill is for my 1st month
so ex... dammit...

fuck m1 man
fuck em' upsidedown

arhhhx

2006-05-03T02:27:00.000-07:00

this few days are tiring.. i nv blog for so long
i got lots of paper work have yet to finish
haiis~ a big pile of them.. accounts... and
bookings.. exchange orders.. invoices..
refunds... haiis... all in ring files.. and its thick
or rather the documents are so much that
the ring file can't click and close properly..
there are 15 files for me to check.. and
name cards of operators and customers
two verticle card holding boxes... haiis
lol... haiis life is like this wat to do?
nth can be done.. if only i nv chose
this path to adverture on... lolx....

well tml will be my first day in clememti ite
haiis i got no frens in there.. i'm gonna be
really lonely.. kekex.. well i nv go for the
orientation day so i dunno wat type of ppl
i'm having as classmates.. or rather strange
ppl from all walks of life... but i think my classmates
are mostly girls.. cos i dun think guy will be interested
in Service Skills Tourism ba... hahax
haiis~ life so different as u grow older...
i wanted to freeze the time so much
so i no need to grow up..
lolx... fat hope yea` haiis
i'm tired of the life i'm living...

and i still haven recieve my pay yet
haiis.. i'm broke already...

haiish

2006-04-18T03:39:00.000-07:00

FUCKING DU LAN LOR
CCB
BOSS KPKB ME NBCB
TO HELL WITH GOD LARH
NBCB FUCK UR NBCCB
FUCK HIM NBCB

GAN NI NA BU EH CHEE BYE
CHAO CHEE BYE
KAN NI NA EH CHEE BYE
KNN BOH LAN JIAO
NNE POO BOH

haiis

2006-04-12T01:46:00.000-07:00

changed everything....
lolx... a good sign of start over a new life yea'
muahaha..
yea yea.... a good choice to leave my past
behind... hmm yup i give up on him too
cos i know he won't be wit me no matter wat
so yea... for the whole nite... i smile at the memories
he could give... maybe it will be the last memorie
i'll remind myself..

lolx... nth else but frens... muahaha

hmm... anyway i FCUKING confuse...
why will so many of them ask the same thing at one time?
haiis~ peii aii oso tong ku... hahax

me now wan a carefree life untill i really met HIM

hahax

sch going to start le... but i HAVE NO FREN in sch

HAIIS~

Tried

2006-04-04T03:04:00.000-07:00

today my hand very tired!!
cos i have to write all the document
for my customers
shagg~

haii.... jus got pay....
but now left 302.........
haiis~ shagg
haii~ sian lar... so hardworking
oso no use................... lp
so tired of living...
nothing's worth living for...

(this bloody old man so kpo in my office )
(anyhow take things dunno how to ask, dunno how to put back)
(LJ)

so sian...........

2006-03-31T19:38:00.000-08:00

meet-up with ah ken at my place, slack drink coffee
after tat see him home then i headed off to my house
jus as i got out of the lift he called.... but i didn't react
fast so the line went dead... i returned his call...
but end up he say nth already.... well.... i guess
he needed something... i felt sorry as i can't help much
haiis~ the past two days uncle nv online.... he went
chalet enjoy... haiis i left with no one to chat during
office hours... BT oso bz now a days... the rest nv talk
at all.... ar bo is those DEspO kias... haiis...
i felt much more alone now not like last time... with
all my besties with me... sunny or rainny, windy or cloudy
... haiis~... now its like i've got to be independent...
must learn to have a life without frens?????
haiis~ i had been alone going to work, having my lunch,
going home... for the past few months...
i really hate this life.... Grr~!*
haiis~ well life goes on. . =) the best have yet to come yea'
this coming Thursday is Ying Wen birthday.
Lets wish her a very happi bithday!
yea yea mature 17 le dun be so inconsiderate lar aiyo...
17 lehx.... no 14 or 15 liao.... lol
hmmm so happy for her... her family and relative is
celebrating for her...

will i have the same thing as her when my birthday come?
i honestly dun think so..... it had been years they nv celebrate it
well guess only my father cares... sometimes he might not buy
a cake but there will always be a very fatherly"shen re kuai le"
from him. lolx.. well but last year my mum do wish me a happy
birthday too... haiis... tats my life... isn't it? i know there are things
which we can't compare from others but who wouldn't want to be the
best of the best? lolx...

haiis~ is doesn't matter now.. i'll be alright..everything will be alright.
i know you are there for me... pa you are the best!

CCCCCC

2006-03-31T01:38:00.000-08:00

SIANZATION~!!*

我是真的爱你的

2006-03-30T01:40:00.000-08:00

为何我爱的人是你?
为何我的眼泪如雨下?
为何我那么痛苦?
我爱你我爱你
真的很爱很爱你.......
you are my miracle
when you believe
there can be miracle
when you believe...
奇迹
你相信吗?
我还在等待...
因为你就是我的奇迹.
我的天空...

haiix*

2006-03-29T00:19:00.000-08:00

damn it i'm so tired...
this week i reported late at work...
so sleepy now a days.....
i've got lotsa paperwork to do
wahhahaha.............................
i'm happii now...
i want to be happii everyday...
i dun want to be sad anymore...
lolx... tis few days chat wit some ppl
who can make me cheerful. lolx
thanks uncle! for spending ur time
chatting wit me lolx... u make me laugh
until 'pengz' haas

happii* always`~!*

i'm sorry

2006-03-27T01:16:00.000-08:00

laterly i had been treating him quiet badly...
it does hurts alot to treat him like this.
but its the only way to my suceed...
Let go.
i hope he's not hurt by me...
if i do... i'm really sorry..
trusting myself to let go.
i have to do it....
lets hope u can get someone better yea'
if there's a day i might returning to u
pls do tell me off......
and i'm not those who will give in to
whatever u wan now... that's the past already
hope u can treat me as a fren not a 'Girl'
at red district..... i need ur respect too.
time will heal my wounds
day will dump my pain
year will erase my memories

hope u change for the better

bless u forever

lol

2006-03-24T02:03:00.000-08:00

today quite happy
no, its very happy
dun ask me why.. but i'm jus
very very happy.. i noe a fren
who is very cheerful.. maybe
i want to be like him cheerful
everyday.. no matter wat
happen he's always cheerful
lolx... he's damn cute and shuaii
lolx..(hor uncle) lolx

lalalalalalalalala
lulalulalula ehS~`!*
happy like siaO~
muahaha...

takkair everyone~`!!*

///

2006-03-22T21:23:00.000-08:00

love is to forgive or forget..
without love we can't forgive or forget
someone.

with love i forgive you
ying wen... hope u will change to be better
with hate i dont forget.
with love i let him go, with love i forgive
whatever he had done.

love in between us has fade away, i know it

Letting go of the love which develop deep inside
my heart is a painful process, but still i'll endure
the pain... the pain of letting go is less painful
than to love you.

now wanting to start anew...

meet ying wen for lunch jus now... same thing
long john. lolx
can say i'm a soft-hearted person ba...
i still remember all the pain people
give me... i sometimes do think i don't deserve
it... sometimes i think i ask for it.. haiis maybe to forgive
is harder than forget..

I HATE YOU!!

2006-03-22T01:38:00.000-08:00

i hate you!
i hate all your lies!!!
dun always say i'm your best
sister when u dun even care
abt me. you say these becos everyone
in class dislike you! all your fucking
lies! i believed you no-matter wat.
i care.. but you? when you noe new
frens where do i stand in your heart?
the BIN! the dustbin okay... you idiot
bloody asshole you... screw you up-side
down till you scream, bled okay
dun fucking say i'm you best sister
when you are thinking i'm not..okay
dun always making use of me k..
i'm not your bloody maid or toy
all your bloody bullshits
you always do things tat benefit yourself
you will never think of others...
7years plus of friendship and you want
to spolit it... you heartless idiot...
you are making me fucking angry
okay.... BULLSHITS.. so they are your
besties'yea
than die with'em
i dun give a damn
BULLSHITS

2006-03-20T18:58:00.000-08:00

morning everyone. .. morning
yesterday nite i had been
thinking for quite a long
time. .. i am thinking of
shld i let go..or never
stop loving him. ..
last time my answers are
not clear..dunno..dun wan
but now i'm very clear..
very very clear. ..
my answer... let go..
i letter written by my "gan-ge"
a few years back than.
it says: if he is yours, he will
always be yours. .. if he is not
yours, he will never be yours
no-matter how long you wait..
4 years, 5 years or even 10 years
down the road, he will never be
yours. .. so JUST LET GO. ..
now i have misplaced this letter
somewhere in sch... thanks kor
thanks for giving me this
letter.. now i understand wats the
meaning of this letter. ..
i will let go of him... but not
the memories... this is the best
thing he gave me.. and oso the
best gift i have ever recieve.
Thanks for giving me all this
all this you have done make me
stronger in the mind. but weaken
in my heart.. let go...

all mu fault

2006-03-20T00:56:00.000-08:00

sorry.... its all my fault....
if it wasn't for me you wont be like this..
i shouldn't be born in this world..
i shouldn't.....
i always bring trouble to everyone....
why?
life really sux......
i hate it all..
i hate everthing.....................

guD moRninG~

2006-03-17T18:21:00.000-08:00

guD mOrning everyone~
hahax
me so siaN~
stoning... lolx nothing to do
hope my bros can all go to sentosa next saturday.
Pls go... haas

the past saturday i was so angry as well as sad
cos i relised something tat will break my heart seriously
broken into a milion milion milion pieces...
and he won't know abt it.. cos its nothing to do with him.
and he dun even give a damn abt it as i think...
i just hate her very much.. very very much
but i hate myself more... i simply jus have to force a smile
at work... force a laugh at home.. and jus cry in the wee
hours in the dark and lonely night.... with no one would
care... who would? who would care abt a person like me?
guess only my dearest daddy ba.... and he will never know
wat have i gone tru... nobody will ever know the pain which
i am suffer from...

wat did i do to deserve this?

end here...

God bless everyone

+_[let the MEMORIES ignite into ashes]_+

...............

2006-03-10T01:13:00.000-08:00

sO trieD
lolx
everyday routine is the same
hahax
just as boring as before
but more tried nia
haha
stupid com like sOt sOt le
hate me ma bo bian
so be it lorhx
haha

[ [[ __ leT tHe memOrieS iGnitE inTO aSheS ~`*// !!

Lol

2006-03-09T00:36:00.000-08:00

i want to go out on Sat lehx..
but dunno where to go
dunno find who to go wit me..
oso wan to slack lehx....
hahax cant decide...
hahax want to meet-up wif my classmates...
but seem like we already not in contact...
haiis

[L] et t [H] e me[M]orie[S] i[G]nite i[N]to ash[E]s

Ignite

2006-03-08T02:01:00.000-08:00

haiix~
hope everything will be okay
i wish my pending case will close soon..
lolx today is a tried day for me..
struggling all the time...

hahax.. hope i can foget everyting

[[ __ Let the memorieS iGnite inTo aShes __ ]]

...............

2006-03-06T20:42:00.000-08:00

u wish i was dead yea....
i wun die so fast.....
i wan u to suffer be4 i lay in a coffin.
I WAN'T YOU TO SUFFER MORE THAN I DO
get it...? jus the both of u guess u should know
who the both of u are..... jus wait...
i'm sure i got a chance to make both u suffer
together. U both make me suffer i make both u
SUFFER DOUBLE!
let u both taste what i've been tru...
if i have to die first.. i make SURE i make u both suffer
even if i'm a ghost.. no escape.. no no...
i'm not crazy... i'm jus insane.......
i wanted the revenge... sooner or later...
hahax..... sooner or LATER.
S U F F E R D O U B L E.............

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU
ABOUT HER
ABOUT MYSELF
WISH EVERYTHING CAN JUS VANISHE

LET THE MEMORIES IGNITE INTO ASHES!

very shaG~`!*

2006-03-03T01:20:00.000-08:00

i very very de stress
kao
haiix~`**
haiix hao 'fun'
haiix canT believed tat she betrayed mi
bitch~ slut~
why she did tis without using her bloody asshole to think!?
bloody hell... dun let mi find way to get u
if i got the chance i'll make sure i make u suffer till
u drop. bloody hell~ nobody is scare of u bitch!
i dare u beat me up.
u rip open my wound wider now.
u cant stop the bleed
i'm getting u for this. jus wait.

............

2006-02-28T17:30:00.000-08:00

why must you do all this to me...
dont you know it really hurts.
had my love spoilt you?
thats why you are like this?
why can't you spare a tot for me?
i'm not ur slave nor ur atm and something else.
you won't get to see the tears i've cried...
why must you smash my heart into milion pieces?
i'm deeply hurt...
tried to continue...

miss-HIM-

2006-02-27T01:31:00.000-08:00

miss him....

hais~
i dunno why
i jus can'T forget him
why?
who can tell me why?
he's jus making use of me OnLy rite?
need me find me dun need me go and die.
Right??
how foolish and stupid i am isn't i?
the world's bigger fool yea...
i am so useless rite.
i am so stupid rite.
i am ashame of myself because of you.
you don't know how i feel
you don't know what had i gone tru
you don't know my pain
you know nothing.
wo tong ku, ni xing fu
wo nan guo, ni kuai le
ai yi ge ren shi zhe yang de mah?
ai ni de zi wei shi ku de mah?
wei she mer wo na mer tong ku?

ni hao kuai le~!!!
wo HAO TONG KU~!

i'm sorry

2006-02-24T01:23:00.000-08:00

i'm so stress stress stress stress
no time for lunch
no time to go pump pump
no time to go toilet
no time no time
arGGGGGGGG!!!!

bT.. hope u nOe whu u are... yea
i'm sorry if i had hurt u but i didn't mean it
hope u will understand.........
its rather hard to forget abt him...
yuP but frenx fer ever kz?
i noe its impossible between me and him
u see this two colourx together?
the contrast is nice, isn't it?
but u see this
this is me...
this is him...
doesn't match at all..
i noe i'm foolish but
the memories get me goin on
i live for the memories of us
not for myself....
do u understand how i feel?
i hope u do.....

sTreSs! sTreSs! sTreSs!

2006-02-21T23:56:00.000-08:00

i stress until cannot sleep..yesterday and today nose bleed sum more
*sObs* haiix~.. so stress... cannot tahan the life i'm living now...
Life's like heLL.. i think heLL beTter bahx.
ku ming...... ku ming......
haO tried so tried of my life

life sux!

trieD~

2006-02-15T22:40:00.000-08:00

sO sO sO tired!!!
haiix....
my 2nd boss keep on picking on me
so tuLan. nb...
asK me dO thiS dO tat
i dO liao still bueh sOng me...cb..
tink i'm robort aRhx
nO need to resT arh
knn... paY me sO little
wanT mE do sO many work
tinK i'M hiS maid arH nb....
stUTupid goh poon soO
blOody p.s.goh ccb..
die early goOd laRhx hOrx
dUn cOme bueh sOng wiT me
idioT!!!!!!!!!!
alwis kpkb... like wat
kaO bueh TahaN!!!
NBCB!!! MotherFuckeR!
kaO eh.... siT beHind me sOme mOre
Like neber bath de.. aLways scratch here n there
Hair got sO many dandruff wah laO eh... Gan eR xiN!
sO diSgUsTed kaO~

jus another day

2006-02-06T01:15:00.000-08:00

today i issue a airticket with the wrong name of my customer
-_-" sO strEss

ppl lim ah chai.. i put teo ah chai

haiix..

sO stress... dun wan to work.. haiix...

no fren to talk xin shi...

haiix``

i wanT to die le la!!!!

GrRrRrRrRrR...

haix...

dere`s no lurff around....

2006-02-01T22:45:00.000-08:00

everthing seems so cold to me...

no warmth.. no nth..

i'm jus surrounded by darkness....

cold n chilling.... & icy

i hate almost everythin...

i hate myself most...

yes i've got my sisters who is caring..

they care for me...

but it doesn't seems to be enough..

i tot of commiting sucide...

why must this all happen to me??

why...?

wat else can i do?

nobody knows..

haiix...

life really sux...

haiix~

2006-01-22T23:46:00.000-08:00

siann arhx!!

keep on working sia...

haiis...
haiis... miss all my ex classmate sia...
wish to slack wit them at wcc once again..
go 407.. 408... draw here draw there..
run here run there...
haiis~
miss my jie mei toO...
go second floor toilet do business...
lock the door... draw on e mirror, wall
& doorx...

yA linG - laO demOn
sieW Zhen - xiaO aii
yinG weN - WeN zI
misSed deArly bY
eiLeeN- xiaO demOn
sIsta feR*eveR

haiix*

2006-01-16T23:21:00.000-08:00

haiis..
so sian... nth to do...
everyday work and work and work salary still so low
sian arhz... haiix

-bOrinG-

2005-12-24T22:50:00.000-08:00

arhxx... so sian... christmas still have to work...
bloody asS.... haven even got my pay yet....
still mus work so hard....
haiiix~

merry christmas everyone!!!

+ hmmm ... +

2005-12-18T01:07:00.000-08:00

heys... jus got back from thailand/khao lak..

hahas.. i have learnt lots of things..
lots of personal values too
the kids there are hyper-active
love playing with them! haas..
miss them so much now.. haiis
and i miss my dears too. yi ru... elaine
have a great time interacting wit all the ppl there
all of them are so nice!!
i'm not lonely animore!!!

hey hEYY!!!

2005-10-11T06:09:00.000-07:00

yozzy!!!

tml chalet le!!!

can't wait to go there!!!!!

yIpPyZx!!!

muSt enjoy lox!!!

yo yo yo

2005-10-10T01:37:00.000-07:00

haas today so sian...

nothing to do at all!!!

haiix

but happy cos i seeing my

favorite classmates on wednesday!!!

i really goin to enjoy tat man!!!!

YiPpYxx~

haas..

love them lOts lOts man!!!

i'm oFF

bye~

haas!!!

2005-10-08T03:06:00.000-07:00

yippY!!! exam finally over le!!!

so happy... but sad... cos

i can't see most of moii classmate AnYmOrez!!

haiix... i lazy to write so much lehz ... haas

end here le

buaiX!!!

haaas...

2005-09-25T00:52:00.000-07:00

tml goin back to sch... haiiix

bo bian... they all wan go than i go lo...

today is just another boring day... haiixx

wen long dunn wanna open the chalet anymore le...

haiix~ oso dunno why...

haiix think bcos of two person bah...

this two person very *&%$

haas... hmmm

gtg le la buaix*

haiix..

2005-09-24T03:13:00.000-07:00

today so sian and lonely....

haiis...

missing him...

really wish he can be by my side...

haiiix

lurees hurtx^

2005-09-24T01:37:00.000-07:00

haas... today first dae write nia...

hmm dunno wat to write...

haas....