didn't i say i have to be stern..
why when the moment i saw ur
pic my heart will have a huge
pain.. like a stone drowning in
the deep water?.. stop beating
fro a few moment.. and a sudden
saddness????? i can't believe in
myself anymore.. i can't lie to myself
anymore...
the fact is
i still love you... i really love u this much
i'm sad not becos u dun love me in return
i'm sad becos i dun have the courage to
let it go..
dieing in my own mess...
bitching with my feelings
playing in my own blood..
blood..sweat..and tears..
just to love you
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/30/2006 03:08:00 AM]]
with love life will be easier to
move on..
i dun mind to live my life in
a dull way. its better with love
love is something i'm most afraid of
the feeling i hate most.
the love from my family and frens
will be enuff for my to live on.
and i will not wan anything else than
frens. Till i recover from my suffering
well... without a guy i still can live my
life.
i will not want to love again.
and not to be loved again.
life has not been easy for me.
dun let me suffer anymore..
if not nobody will know why i will die
out of a sudden.
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/29/2006 02:35:00 AM]]
well life nv be the same without u
i had lived abt 2 yrs ++ without ur
care without ur love without ur
concern without everything...
and thanks for the lies
thanks for pretending like u CARE
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/24/2006 03:08:00 AM]]
i draw these nice?
haas~ today caiicaii finally online liao if
not nobody tok*co*k wif me again lol
now he working in pastamania lol gotta
wear e hat and he hate it alot.. meow~
lolx.. went golden shoe for lunch again
a big thank you to tracy for the treat
and "smOkesss" sticks.. lolx... hmm i
and i'm thinking of having a tattoo...
the original one or the luminious one..?
confused.. today deb babe didn't online
so i can't ask her for opinion.. lol i jus
love her flamed ace.. so cool.. hmm
if i really gonna get one where shld
i have it on?? lolx... dang... well if i
really want i have to wait for next
month when i get my pay... lol....
thinking of have a butterful tribal..
i saw it on net.. it was beautiful
really a beauti man.... hahax
think too much liao la~
miss him*
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/23/2006 03:02:00 AM]]
yesterday went grandma house for lunch and
went SKT.. i went up to didi uncle's house to
watch TV... i waited about 2 hours for the
show i wanted.. Devil Beside You..
wahaha... love this show.. i loved the charater
played by Mike He Jun Xiang as "Ah Meng"
he gave me the feeling of... dangerious...
mysterious..cool and last but not least
HANDSOME. kekex... how i wish i can meet
someone like him in sch =) lolx..
so yan dao... but so sad... the show only
hosted on sunday... lolx.. this show is
great... so touch too... i got tears when i watch
this show so nice... haas
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/21/2006 11:29:00 PM]]
today is not my day... vexed..and sad
well there are things i can't pretend it
nv happen.. i wanted to forget abt it
seal it up.. but u reminded me tat...
well the feeling is like a healing
wound being tear open again.. i was
very sad abt tat.. i did not want this
to happen as well.. but when u say
those.. at tat very moment, tears
rushed their way down to my cheek
and i had nv expect u will say those
things..
life is jus something useless
if only i need not to live in this
world.. wouldn't it be good?
it will be perfect..
prefectly beautiful
things jus dun get in the
way u wanted it to be..
life.. is meaningless
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/19/2006 03:41:00 AM]]
today..suppose to have lunch with ya ling bao bei
de.. but last minute she got thing to do cannot meet me..
lol.. nth much to say because everyday's the same.. lol
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/17/2006 03:16:00 AM]]
OMG... I can survive anymore..
haiis... i'm broke.. how am i
going to live?
haiis... his last wish is to put
tattoo on his both hand and
shading in his chest... haiis
i hope i can grant him his wish
but how? to love someone
who don't love u is something
really sad huh... tats what i
can say..
[*ni ai de chang lang*]
[*wo ai de nuan luo*]
haiix~... when will i find
someone who really love
me and i really love him?
lolx... to early in fall in
love with someone ba...
17 onli know what rite
but haiis... nobody really
know how others feel
except for ur own-self
......................................
he will nv understand
how much he meant
to me..
love is hurtful
ignite my DREAMS
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/16/2006 12:48:00 AM]]
yesterday... celebrated my birthday with papa and ah di...
went alexandra food maket eat dinner... saw zai rong and
wei xiang... they r so busy.. lol
haiis... not very happy...
nth to say le... so bz and tired...haas
*cant help inlove with euu*
went alexandra food maket eat dinner... saw zai rong and
wei xiang... they r so busy.. lol
haiis... not very happy...
nth to say le... so bz and tired...haas
*cant help inlove with euu*
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/15/2006 01:06:00 AM]]
well... i had been spending my money recklessly
i dun felt sorry..
now i'm left with 2.94 in my account for
1 month... and i had beem living on my dad money
and i lied to him i have 100 in there and 60 in
mu purse... if he finds out i'm goin to die and guess
i sign up a m1 phone line student plan. my bill is
175++ m1 is not worth ppl using they are expensive
they rob in day-light. gosh
well u might think i called ppl too much/too long
i can tell u. the outgoing call time is only 16 hours++
for one and 1/2 month... and tat bill is for my 1st month
so ex... dammit...
fuck m1 man
fuck em' upsidedown
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/08/2006 03:12:00 AM]]
this few days are tiring.. i nv blog for so long
i got lots of paper work have yet to finish
haiis~ a big pile of them.. accounts... and
bookings.. exchange orders.. invoices..
refunds... haiis... all in ring files.. and its thick
or rather the documents are so much that
the ring file can't click and close properly..
there are 15 files for me to check.. and
name cards of operators and customers
two verticle card holding boxes... haiis
lol... haiis life is like this wat to do?
nth can be done.. if only i nv chose
this path to adverture on... lolx....
well tml will be my first day in clememti ite
haiis i got no frens in there.. i'm gonna be
really lonely.. kekex.. well i nv go for the
orientation day so i dunno wat type of ppl
i'm having as classmates.. or rather strange
ppl from all walks of life... but i think my classmates
are mostly girls.. cos i dun think guy will be interested
in Service Skills Tourism ba... hahax
haiis~ life so different as u grow older...
i wanted to freeze the time so much
so i no need to grow up..
lolx... fat hope yea` haiis
i'm tired of the life i'm living...
and i still haven recieve my pay yet
haiis.. i'm broke already...
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[5/03/2006 02:27:00 AM]]
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