meet-up with ah ken at my place, slack drink coffee
after tat see him home then i headed off to my house
jus as i got out of the lift he called.... but i didn't react
fast so the line went dead... i returned his call...
but end up he say nth already.... well.... i guess
he needed something... i felt sorry as i can't help much
haiis~ the past two days uncle nv online.... he went
chalet enjoy... haiis i left with no one to chat during
office hours... BT oso bz now a days... the rest nv talk
at all.... ar bo is those DEspO kias... haiis...
i felt much more alone now not like last time... with
all my besties with me... sunny or rainny, windy or cloudy
... haiis~... now its like i've got to be independent...
must learn to have a life without frens?????
haiis~ i had been alone going to work, having my lunch,
going home... for the past few months...
i really hate this life.... Grr~!*
haiis~ well life goes on. . =) the best have yet to come yea'
this coming Thursday is Ying Wen birthday.
Lets wish her a very happi bithday!
yea yea mature 17 le dun be so inconsiderate lar aiyo...
17 lehx.... no 14 or 15 liao.... lol
hmmm so happy for her... her family and relative is
celebrating for her...
will i have the same thing as her when my birthday come?
i honestly dun think so..... it had been years they nv celebrate it
well guess only my father cares... sometimes he might not buy
a cake but there will always be a very fatherly"shen re kuai le"
from him. lolx.. well but last year my mum do wish me a happy
birthday too... haiis... tats my life... isn't it? i know there are things
which we can't compare from others but who wouldn't want to be the
best of the best? lolx...
haiis~ is doesn't matter now.. i'll be alright..everything will be alright.
i know you are there for me... pa you are the best!
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/31/2006 07:38:00 PM]]
SIANZATION~!!*
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/31/2006 01:38:00 AM]]
为何我爱的人是你?
为何我的眼泪如雨下?
为何我那么痛苦?
我爱你我爱你
真的很爱很爱你.......
you are my miracle
when you believe
there can be miracle
when you believe...
奇迹
你相信吗?
我还在等待...
因为你就是我的奇迹.
我的天空...
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/30/2006 01:40:00 AM]]
damn it i'm so tired...
this week i reported late at work...
so sleepy now a days.....
i've got lotsa paperwork to do
wahhahaha.............................
i'm happii now...
i want to be happii everyday...
i dun want to be sad anymore...
lolx... tis few days chat wit some ppl
who can make me cheerful. lolx
thanks uncle! for spending ur time
chatting wit me lolx... u make me laugh
until 'pengz' haas
happii* always`~!*
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/29/2006 12:19:00 AM]]
laterly i had been treating him quiet badly...
it does hurts alot to treat him like this.
but its the only way to my suceed...
Let go.
i hope he's not hurt by me...
if i do... i'm really sorry..
trusting myself to let go.
i have to do it....
lets hope u can get someone better yea'
if there's a day i might returning to u
pls do tell me off......
and i'm not those who will give in to
whatever u wan now... that's the past already
hope u can treat me as a fren not a 'Girl'
at red district..... i need ur respect too.
time will heal my wounds
day will dump my pain
year will erase my memories
hope u change for the better
bless u forever
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/27/2006 01:16:00 AM]]
today quite happy
no, its very happy
dun ask me why.. but i'm jus
very very happy.. i noe a fren
who is very cheerful.. maybe
i want to be like him cheerful
everyday.. no matter wat
happen he's always cheerful
lolx... he's damn cute and shuaii
lolx..(hor uncle) lolx
lalalalalalalalala
lulalulalula ehS~`!*
happy like siaO~
muahaha...
takkair everyone~`!!*
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/24/2006 02:03:00 AM]]
love is to forgive or forget..
without love we can't forgive or forget
someone.
with love i forgive you
ying wen... hope u will change to be better
with hate i dont forget.
with love i let him go, with love i forgive
whatever he had done.
love in between us has fade away, i know it
Letting go of the love which develop deep inside
my heart is a painful process, but still i'll endure
the pain... the pain of letting go is less painful
than to love you.
now wanting to start anew...
meet ying wen for lunch jus now... same thing
long john. lolx
can say i'm a soft-hearted person ba...
i still remember all the pain people
give me... i sometimes do think i don't deserve
it... sometimes i think i ask for it.. haiis maybe to forgive
is harder than forget..
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/22/2006 09:23:00 PM]]
i hate you!
i hate all your lies!!!
dun always say i'm your best
sister when u dun even care
abt me. you say these becos everyone
in class dislike you! all your fucking
lies! i believed you no-matter wat.
i care.. but you? when you noe new
frens where do i stand in your heart?
the BIN! the dustbin okay... you idiot
bloody asshole you... screw you up-side
down till you scream, bled okay
dun fucking say i'm you best sister
when you are thinking i'm not..okay
dun always making use of me k..
i'm not your bloody maid or toy
all your bloody bullshits
you always do things tat benefit yourself
you will never think of others...
7years plus of friendship and you want
to spolit it... you heartless idiot...
you are making me fucking angry
okay.... BULLSHITS.. so they are your
besties'yea
than die with'em
i dun give a damn
BULLSHITS
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/22/2006 01:38:00 AM]]
morning everyone. .. morning
yesterday nite i had been
thinking for quite a long
time. .. i am thinking of
shld i let go..or never
stop loving him. ..
last time my answers are
not clear..dunno..dun wan
but now i'm very clear..
very very clear. ..
my answer... let go..
i letter written by my "gan-ge"
a few years back than.
it says: if he is yours, he will
always be yours. .. if he is not
yours, he will never be yours
no-matter how long you wait..
4 years, 5 years or even 10 years
down the road, he will never be
yours. .. so JUST LET GO. ..
now i have misplaced this letter
somewhere in sch... thanks kor
thanks for giving me this
letter.. now i understand wats the
meaning of this letter. ..
i will let go of him... but not
the memories... this is the best
thing he gave me.. and oso the
best gift i have ever recieve.
Thanks for giving me all this
all this you have done make me
stronger in the mind. but weaken
in my heart.. let go...
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/20/2006 06:58:00 PM]]
sorry.... its all my fault....
if it wasn't for me you wont be like this..
i shouldn't be born in this world..
i shouldn't.....
i always bring trouble to everyone....
why?
life really sux......
i hate it all..
i hate everthing.....................
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/20/2006 12:56:00 AM]]
guD mOrning everyone~
hahax
me so siaN~
stoning... lolx nothing to do
hope my bros can all go to sentosa next saturday.
Pls go... haas
the past saturday i was so angry as well as sad
cos i relised something tat will break my heart seriously
broken into a milion milion milion pieces...
and he won't know abt it.. cos its nothing to do with him.
and he dun even give a damn abt it as i think...
i just hate her very much.. very very much
but i hate myself more... i simply jus have to force a smile
at work... force a laugh at home.. and jus cry in the wee
hours in the dark and lonely night.... with no one would
care... who would? who would care abt a person like me?
guess only my dearest daddy ba.... and he will never know
wat have i gone tru... nobody will ever know the pain which
i am suffer from...
wat did i do to deserve this?
end here...
God bless everyone
+_[let the MEMORIES ignite into ashes]_+
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/17/2006 06:21:00 PM]]
sO trieD
lolx
everyday routine is the same
hahax
just as boring as before
but more tried nia
haha
stupid com like sOt sOt le
hate me ma bo bian
so be it lorhx
haha
[ [[ __ leT tHe memOrieS iGnitE inTO aSheS ~`*// !!
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/10/2006 01:13:00 AM]]
i want to go out on Sat lehx..
but dunno where to go
dunno find who to go wit me..
oso wan to slack lehx....
hahax cant decide...
hahax want to meet-up wif my classmates...
but seem like we already not in contact...
haiis
[L] et t [H] e me[M]orie[S] i[G]nite i[N]to ash[E]s
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/09/2006 12:36:00 AM]]
haiix~
hope everything will be okay
i wish my pending case will close soon..
lolx today is a tried day for me..
struggling all the time...
hahax.. hope i can foget everyting
[[ __ Let the memorieS iGnite inTo aShes __ ]]
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/08/2006 02:01:00 AM]]
u wish i was dead yea....
i wun die so fast.....
i wan u to suffer be4 i lay in a coffin.
I WAN'T YOU TO SUFFER MORE THAN I DO
get it...? jus the both of u guess u should know
who the both of u are..... jus wait...
i'm sure i got a chance to make both u suffer
together. U both make me suffer i make both u
SUFFER DOUBLE!
let u both taste what i've been tru...
if i have to die first.. i make SURE i make u both suffer
even if i'm a ghost.. no escape.. no no...
i'm not crazy... i'm jus insane.......
i wanted the revenge... sooner or later...
hahax..... sooner or LATER.
S U F F E R D O U B L E.............
I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU
ABOUT HER
ABOUT MYSELF
WISH EVERYTHING CAN JUS VANISHE
LET THE MEMORIES IGNITE INTO ASHES!
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/06/2006 08:42:00 PM]]
i very very de stress
kao
haiix~`**
haiix hao 'fun'
haiix canT believed tat she betrayed mi
bitch~ slut~
why she did tis without using her bloody asshole to think!?
bloody hell... dun let mi find way to get u
if i got the chance i'll make sure i make u suffer till
u drop. bloody hell~ nobody is scare of u bitch!
i dare u beat me up.
u rip open my wound wider now.
u cant stop the bleed
i'm getting u for this. jus wait.
stiLL l0ving HIM__ [[3/03/2006 01:20:00 AM]]
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